Friday, September 7, 2012

Stop it.

Been crying from 11pm in the evening 'til 3 in the morning. I really should've thanked Cateeeey sweeeeety baby for listening. Grabeng sentimyento de asukal ang ginawa ko. Okay, ganito kasi yon.

  • Pakiramdam ko kasi, di pa rin nakakamove on talaga si Chil from his past. I asked him a million times na yata, kaya merong times na naiinis na sya sakin. Oh well, tanga lang. He would look at me straight into my eyes and say, "Ikaw lang mahal na mahal ko, at wala na talaga akong pakialam dun. Wala na." Then he'll kiss me. Next.
  • Pakiramdam ko, wala lang. Hahaha! I have been so moody these past few days, and oftentimes, naiiyak ako ng walang dahilan. (Oh deep inside I know why I wanted to cry.)
And because of this shit, I texted Chil, sabi ko "Pogi, usap tayo bukas ha? I really need to talk to you. Moonleaf tayo. I love you so much. ;( Kahit ang sakit sakit sobra."

I wanted to clarify things. 
Shet. Hello Popoy. OMG. </3
Message sent: 1:08am

Okay. Next thing I knew that happened, I was talking to Cateeey, and it's just amazing that she was able to make me feel comfortable kahit na puro kagaguhan na yung sinasabi nya. We're talking for 2 hours straight, and I was like drained kaya I went down to have some water. 

Cateeeey and I talking and talking and talking. Oooops, may naka waiting sa call list ko. When I checked who it was, aaaBaby Pogi Ko ♥ is calling me. I instructed Cateeey to hold on and I'll call her later again, and this is it. 

Chil: Baby bakit naman yung text mo? Iihi lang sana ako e, nabasa ko text mo, bakit ano nangyari?

Me: Ah wala, mamaya na lang ha? Iba kasi kapag sa personal e.

Chil: Eeeeeh gusto ko ngayon na baby sige na. Bakit ka umiiyak?

Me: Wala, ano kasi e. Alam mo yung feeling na pakiramdam ko, di ka pa din talaga nakakamove- on?

Chil: Hala naman baby naman e. Yan na naman? Diba sabi ko sayo ikaw lang mahal na mahal ko? Alam ng Sirs na sobrang masaya ako simula nung naging girlfriend kita. Baby naman pinapaiyak mo ko e. Alam nila yun. Sila yung tropa ko e. Sana wag kang makinig sa kung ano man yung naririnig mo kasi di totoo yun e. Ikaw lang mahal ko. Mahal na mahal kita baby.

Me: Sorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrry. ;((((((((( Baby, kung may nararamdaman ka pa, just tell me ha? Ako maglelet- go. Promise.

Chil: Baby namaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan. Wala na akong dapat balikan kasi di naman ako ganun katanga para magfocus sa nakaraan. Ang focus ko ngayon sa present ko, sa future ko, at ikaw yun.

Me: Oki baby, mahal na mahal din kita. Ayoko mawala ka kaya ganito ako.

Chil: Di naman mangyayari yan baby e. I love you!

Me: Sige na baby sleep ka na ulit. Sorry ha? Nastorbo pa kita.

Chil: I love you! I love you! I love you! I love you! I love you! I love you! I love you! I love you! I love you! I love you! I love you! I love you! I love you! I love you! I love you! I love you! I love you! I love you! I love you! I love you! I love you! I love you! I love you!

Me: Mahal din kita lalo at mas madami wag ka na pumalag. ♥

So tulog na sya. :))

In between sobbing, Chil kept on assuring me na talagang wala na. Believe it or not, I trust him na wala na nga talaga. AKO LANG NAGSASABING MERON PA. AKO LALO NAGPAPAHIRAP SA SARILI KO. Even Marni said that to me, too.

That's why I decided to stop this crap. Wala naman akong mapapala e. Another is, nakita ko na kay Chil na wala na talaga. So I need to stop and shut up.

I appreciated his effort in buying me sandwiches and water just this afternoon kasi di ko na talaga kakayanin at mamamatay na ako sa gutom, e late na late na ako for my class. He's really worried when I texted him saying sobrang basa ako dahil sa ulan, but I told him na okay lang naman ako.

Soon after, nag Moonleaf kami. Para syang timang kasi tuwang tuwa sya na ang lamig daw ng dila nya, e malamang, kinaen nya yung yelo ng milk tea nya nung naubos nya. Ang kulit mo baby. Hahaha. =)))))
We went to Eport para daanan yung Sirs, nakakaloka ang ingay nila. Tapos nag Jolibee with Maine, Cyph, Billy and Just.

Uwian na. He never left me hangga't di ako nakakasakay. Natawa pa nga ako kasi nakaupo na ako sa bus, di pa din sya umaalis dun sa kinatatayuan nya tapos nakatingin sya sakin. :"> Oh, I love you so much my prince!





I love you, Chiles. ♥ Always and Forever. >:*<
Sorry, ayoko lang mawala ka. Kaya napapraning ako. 

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